Taken from my journal in 2007:

Yesterday morning John and I went to the publishing facility to pick up my CD’s, brand new and hot off the presses. Of course we had to celebrate at Starbucks! Over chai lattes and one shared blueberry scone, we took off the plastic wrap and opened the very first CD. Musing over the graphics, so pretty, I noticed that the songs are listed in the wrong order on the back. Ugh, a beautiful moment ruined. Well, most people won’t notice, I guess. But such a huge error!

Then it was ‘bye to sweet hubby, and off to my day job. Excited to have an album out, wishing I didn’t still have to work, and then my phone rang. It was John, and his dad had died.  Dad had been in the hospice facility, daily wasting away from the cancer, and we had been waiting for this moment. But, why on the day of the CD? So bittersweet this day was turning out.

The family gathered in dad’s room at the hospice facility. Much sadness, much laughter, as we recounted memories. Then we all went over to mom’s, who also has cancer.  She’s not doing super good, she’s sad, kinda mad, and really worried about her future. My heart went out to her. A few hours later, I left to make the hour drive home and take care of my kid. Of course, I was rear-ended by an uninsured motorist. Who was a college age girl, begging me not to tell the police, and assuring me that she would pay for the damage on the side. Right!

Why do people have to get cancer? Why do I have to get rear-ended? Why do things always seem to go wrong? I don’t have the answers to the “why’s” of life. But I do know that God loves me, and I Him. What a RELIEF!  That crazy day a couple years ago, when John’s dad died, I realized how much bigger God is than my troubles. And I was so relieved to have God in my life… always taking care of me :)

fly-pitHave you ever had an embarrassing moment?  Mine was at the Summer Concerts outdoor event at Horizon Valley Center a couple years ago.  I was super stoked to play with Ricky, producer for the Rock Everlasting album, and also to share the stage with Ian Galleghar and the Dance Floor Prophets.  I love outdoor evangelism, it’s so amazing to watch God work on people’s hearts.  And I like the loud sound systems too!  So I get up there, begin a beautiful song, and this fly starts buzzing me.  It went in my nose, buzzed my armpit, my eyes… I totally flubbed.  I actually had to start the song over. Howwwww embarrassing!  Everything turned out alright but I was humbled.  And at the end of the day, after all the great bands… it was the clown with the Gospel Puppet Show who truly made an impact.  SO many kids raised their hands and wanted to know Jesus!  A good humbling is necessary now and then, to keep things in perspective.  God is in control, and He will always do good things, no matter if we flub, or not.  And at the end of the day… I was totally encouraged to keep on keepin’ on, despite when there are flies in my armpit.

I had the most wonderful time recently with my son’s preschool teacher.   I noticed something special about her the moment I met her two years ago.  And with relationship over time, invites to our church events… genuine friendship… we reached the grand finale:  I got to pray with her one night to invite Jesus into her heart.   We spent hours looking at bible verses, giggling about life, shedding tears of repentance for sin.  She left my house with a smile on her face, bible in hand, one of my CD’s… ready to rock-and-roll for Christ.  I am so grateful that God would let me be a part of His plan for her life.  And, I am encouraged to keep making friends… even the teachers need Jesus!